Thursday, January 10, 2013

Today's Rant

As I have grown older, my low self-esteem, lack of motivation, and enthusiasm has increased. I work a low-paying job, that has room for advancment. However, I do not really want to go up in the company, I do not like those who run it that much. Everyday is a struggle to go to work because I have no interest and play my part to satisfy my boss. I am a single father, and my daughter lives with me and my mom. I also have a wonderful girlfriend who adores me and wants to do everything for me. So you wonder why I would be so un motivated to get another job? Well, I do enjoy smoking pot to ease the stress and such. However, it is becoming a crutch in a world that views it as evil, or destructive. I really enjoy being able to smoke when I want, but most jobs want to drug test. I have worked for years, and smoked, doing my work as well as the next guy. Each is an individual, none should be judged inefficient or useless because they smoke a plant of the Earth. There are much worse substances that would create havoc. I want to be able to smoke, and work any job where I can make a contribution if only allowed to. Looking at the times, many of those who run the companies cover-up far worse activities then what I may participate in. One day I will find that niche' that will get me gokng towards improvement, and not removing that which makes me who I am.

Friday, January 4, 2013

Forgotten Realms of Sickness

Generation lost
Misstep off landing
Into black pudding
Blood suspension
Killer confusion
Silence screams
Far away closeness
Sexual disintegration
Justice presents lies
Lost on the ancient
Desires of the light
Fright forms forgotten
Deadly words cover
Distorted frames
Mind matters not
Tools to grind
Break bones in time
Awaken the old